Looking for meaning
Looking for love
Looking for something to
never give up
You are the one (x2)
Looking for purpose in all
of the pain
Looking for someone to
hold in the rain
You are the one (x2)
You are life more beautiful
You are love more powerful
You are the light that always shines
You are the one
You came in my darkness
You came in my night
You came without warning
You came to my side
You are the one (x2)
There's no before you
There's no too late
There's no without you
There's only today
You are the one (x2)
You are life more beautiful You are love more powerful You are the light that always shines You are the one
You are the song I wanna sing
You are here
You are everything
You are the light that always shines
You are the one
And I will never move on from you
I will never move on from you
One of your friends came to me and said that you've done some pretty wrong things. Know what I did? Inhaled, exhaled, and said 'f*ck it'. I believe in you. I believe in us. Even if it ends up that all he said was true, well... we'll work on it. But why should something someone else says change what goes on between us? Nothing will change what you mean to me. If you have really done something wrong, I know that you will come and tell me yourself. So, whatever. I love you.
I guess I have decided to have a diary. What changed? Well, I was cleaning my room today and found two very old notebooks. In these I had written my last minutes in Brazil and my first in the U.S. I'll have to admit that I sounded pretty stupid at times, but there were entries that I actually sounded inspired. The thing is, it helped me to understand myself a little bit more. These found diaries also gave me some great laughs. I was impressed even with my change of handwriting throughout the diaries. It helped me remember things I had almost forgotten, and that I should keep always close to my heart. The diary will take a little bit of the weight of my troubled life off my shoulder, too. So, why not give it a chance?
Times like Christmas are when I notice how it hurts me to be away from my family. When I remember those days in which there was no asking "Where am I going for Christmas." We all just met, and apart from any kind of recent family conflict, we all had a fun time.We saw those who were gone for a little while, and saw again those who are just always there. We laughed, cried, jumped, danced, hugged... we did it all. But we did it as a family...the huge family that we were. Oh, how I miss the times when I made up my Christmas list, and chose what I got from who. And my grandpa... he would take me to the commercial center, and say "get yourself ten toys!", but it would always end up being a lot more than just ten. Oh, the times when my grandma yelled at me not to touch her precious tree ornaments. I would sit down and admire the tree for hours. Waiting for my grandma to go upstairs so that I could touch the tree. We used to get ready for Christmas months beforehand. I would buy a whole entire outfit just for that special day... ...how I miss it all. Now there is no tree to admire. No list of gifts to make up. No grandpa to take me to buy whatever I wanted. No new outfits, not even family to unite. Now there are just memories of things that I've lost... of things that I could have if I had chosen to stay. How I wish I could just fly back home, even if for just this day. But there are so many barriers in between me and home. Now here I am, not knowing where to go. Not for having too many options, but for not having options at all. No, I'm not a loner. I have friends. But the thing is... they have their own family. And I have none. Sometimes I wonder if this is all worth it. Is my dream really worth this? Well, there is no turning around. It's too late now. There can be no crying over the road not taken. After all, I am happy for having these memories to treasure. I know there are people that have never had what I once did. Also, one way or another, I will be home by heart. I will be here, fighting for my dream... but my heart will always be home. I truly hope a Merry Christmas for everyone. My family, and all other families out there. And I hope that those away from home, like me, will find their way back or even find home within themselves. I wish above all, love to each individual on earth. Because with love comes all others: hope, sympathy, happiness, and even health. I heart full of love is a healthy heart. A healthy heart is a healthy body. So, love! Love with all that you have got, and don't be afraid to love because you might hurt. Yes, you will hurt sometimes, but the beauty of those moments full of love will immensely compensate for any hurt it might unintentionally cause. So, have a full-of-love Christmas!